Influences (or Why I Write the Way I Do)

Natalie Goldberg (free-flowing writing)
Clarissa Pinkola Estes (wild woman writing)
Jane Hutchison (direct-to-the-point writing)
Ernest Hemingway (simple words writing)

Thursday, January 22, 2015

One at a Time

there are so many things to do. a lot of Ps as in Phd, projects, and people. other ways, to do these things, temptingly present themselves. but as with Money Management, the basic remains, focus one at a time and stick to the original plan. often, the original plan always happens to be the most doable. unless circumstances change to merit last-minute adjustments. but it is on occasions like these that Flow comes in. let it all flow, ride it, just be aware of the crucial Ps and all other will gather in one stream. Focus. Flow. one and the same.

Wednesday, January 21, 2015

Ready to Fore

i don't look at it as pressure. it's just part of what i do. part of work that i have learned to love wholly, the bumps, cracks, and loopholes, and even nasty surprises. just as i cherish the vision to the smallest of inroads and yes, miracles and unexpected right turns. there are continuing and expanding obligations to the team, which is first priority because they are my immediate stakeholders. so yes, we are up to it. we are leading the way. we are trailblazers. we've known that long before the horns have been blowing.

Monday, January 19, 2015

The Language of Shoes

Been waiting here outside the doctor's office for more than 20min now. The doctor is cloistered in a room with a glass wall, shielded by hazy glass starting 2m above the ground. I can only see shoes. There are more than two people with the doctor that I'm beginning to doubt this is not a consultation but an interview. There is no sign they're leaving soon. The woman's shoes are curled under the chair she's sitting on. She's not a patient. A man beside her with hiking loafers still carries the xray in his hand. Now another woman's shoes are visible, open, to show pedicured nails. An old woman's feet. She just switched places with the man and they're not leaving soon. How right I am. A long wait indeed. Good I took lunch before coming here.

Saturday, January 17, 2015

One Lazy Rainy Day

it's the kind of rainy day that makes going out a drag. it makes writing and other office work contemptuous as the bed looks on invitingly. everyone gets irritable, from the dogs outside to the daughter who cannot upload a web photo on Facebook. and i just hope we can have dinner early and retire. let the winds and rains pass on My Lord. forgive us for another day.

Friday, January 16, 2015

Unusually Sick, Ready to Rest

it's not just an ordinary cough. the pain in one's limbs cannot be ignored. one gets fussy, irritable. only a medical doctor's advice would suffice. so dragging my burly laptop to, i was at 'work' while waiting for the doctor's call past 11am. i do not like being this way. but i have to listen. and the body says rest, rest, rest. and to slowly get the groove out of the long Christmas break. so now i rest. work and the thesis finished in terms of commitments for the day. i rest at 655pm, just as Pope Francis reads the Concluding Prayer of the liturgical mass at SM-MOA.

Tuesday, January 13, 2015

All Up to the Universe

I have done my part
And perhaps I can say more
And grab the right attention
But if these are not enough
Then it is up for the Universe
To resolve
Beyond me, I surrender to the Universe

Sunday, January 11, 2015

One Morning at a Time

thesis on a sunday. but there's no rest day no longer.

in bed this morning, i wanted to stay glued. but the thought was --- what new thought will germinate today as i write? what new or better way of linking will materialise if i just work on the thesis, even for just thirty minutes?

and indeed, these questions were answered from 605am to 643am.

on some days, the questions will be left hanging especially when the writing is 'off'. but there is no good day in writing really, one cannot anticipate it. one just has to show up on one's writing desk, open the laptop and endure the white and black page in front of you.

this thesis will be finished. one morning at a time.

Friday, January 9, 2015


Fortnightly Friday dinners
Yoga classes to de-stress
Saving, investing, keeping
Monthly mercatos with the Team
More Morse, Colin Dexters
Life within a Life

Wednesday, January 7, 2015

The Steel Diamond

Fought so hard today against three dumb foreigners who should know better instructing me how to do my job in work that i know out of combined deskwork, research, fieldwork, design and hands-on implementation. I am not steel diamond for nothing.

Tuesday, January 6, 2015

Glasses On

Eyesight worse
First time
Had lunch
Glasses on